Some wound don't fade as time passes, making them harder to forget
So here I am again, desperately seeking answers from the serpent that bit me, but his stoic figure showed no emotions, the fire in his eyes says nothing about regret.

I thought I knew what I was doing when I fell in love with you. They advised me to run, they said that being with you is  hell, but how can I run from hell when the devil is my angel...
Your mindless raging beast was my first love, others saw the devil but all I did see was a lost soul seeking redemption. So I held on for too long thinking I could fix us.
I gladly set my self on fire so you could be warm, guess that wasn't enough to redeem you

I ignored the signs, turned blind to the writings on the wall and chose to live on the assurance you gave me
You were the only male who fuels my anger and frustrations yet gives me warmth and comfort in my darkest moments

I can't seem to forget those kisses that soothes my pain and calms the storm, nor those words from your sweet mouth that acts as serum to my internal wounds 
So why Nkem?

Why did you harm the female you swore to protect?
Why inflict a pain so great that her heart after bleeding from midnight till dawn chooses death as an escape?
Why choose to hurt the same female that you desperately want to protect  even at the expense of your crown?
Why did your choose to walk in destruction?

Did...Did you...Did you ever love me?

# *bruisedpen*