I closed my eyes feeling a bit better

Feeling healed and locked up

Feeling like I had finally gotten over it all

My wounds were closed

And my heart had stopped bleeding

But my dreams were of you still

Reminding me of what we lost and what we could have been

The past flashed behind closed eyes

And I caught a glimpse of our future

I was happy again

I laughed genuinely

And my heart bled

Not with ache

Not with longing

But with love

I caused your smiles and laughter again

I slept in your arms

I didn’t feel your pains

Cause there was none

But I woke up

And couldn’t stop the tears from flowing

Healed wounds were peeled open

And the present came crashing down on me

Without mercy

Without sympathy

I felt it all anew

Like it happened yesterday

But it had been months

You had moved on

Why couldn’t it be the same with me

I deserved to smile too

No matter what I had been put through

What you had put me through

I deserved to be happy