I miss the innocence of being young. 

When my mother always woke me and my siblings up to bathe and dress us up for school. 

When I was very committed to learning the theme songs of Disney channel shows. 

When I always looked forward to taking bread and jam but always dreaded taking golden morn for breakfast before going to school. 

When I always looked forward to birthdays because that meant that party packs would be distributed by the celebrant. 

When I always felt giddy hearing my father's car horn because that meant he brought gifts and snacks on his way back from work. 

When my parents set up a time for us to eat so we don't forget. when I didn't have to take accountability for anything because I was just "a child".

When we always looked forward to 5:00pm so we could go out and play, climb my parents cars, get shouted at and the likes of it. 

When I always looked forward to my birthday every year because we always celebrated it. 

Now I'm older,

Apparently my future is in my hands, I have to work hard to get good grades and have at least one skill so I don't stay idle. 

I have to put up an alarm on my phone to wake up so I can meet up with the activities lined up for the day.

I don't even watch tv anymore .

I often forget to take breakfast.

If I want to enjoy my birthday, I have to save and plan everything by myself. My parents have removed their hands from any celebration of birthdays.

I wait till I'm dizzy before I remember to eat.

I can't run without feeling like I'm looking for air to fill up my lungs. Climbing the stairs has also become a chore. One would think I'm a 57 yr old woman with arthritis. 

I have to be accountable of every single thing I do. 

I'm grateful for the time I was ignorant and inexperienced of the world because losing my innocence means finding my strength.