How much do you wish for?

How much of it can heal your hurt?

How much can be enough? Or, how much do you really need?

Most times, in our quest for more, we have made enemies, and have lost friends.

We found enemies in friends, and more in misguided foes.

You would ask, is it wrong to dream? Is it wrong to wish for more?

Nay...but how much more? And what are you willing to give up? What has it costed you?

Maybe, times and tides have caused us to chase endless shadows; distant lands to command; fame and glory to direct, and if kings will not bow then enough isn't enough. Some have lost so much as human. Some have breathed fiery coals upon still waters, and many have melted the deep.

What envy...what strife...what cloaked rage? 

We all want to be greater than our equals. So, we jump tracks. Maybe by staying ahead of them on their track, our desire would be granted. Thus, an endless tussle begins.

At the end, we might have run for nought.

Silent wars and bitter rivalry. I could not look at you again for I can't recognize you anymore with every shade of wrong and judgement in your eyes—so many, that they became the end of an innocent bond of friendship. And it all happened, because we silently compared ourselves, and none wanted to be last even when there was no race to win.

Where's the humanity we abandoned at the feet of segregation? Where's the love we shared over a wrap of candy as kids? Where are they since we began this endless weary ride to emptiness.

Yesterday, I saw you look away, while I bravely wore that smile that we once shared and found no crime within. Today, I watch you disappear from my sight, having the sole confidence that I have tried to make things better.

You just can't accept you can't be us all put together. You may never accept that there was nothing to hate me for...no goodness in me that wasn't there within you, only that you refused it in its nature.

You wished to be me and nothing better. 

But you have more. Yet I greet them with a smile.

I'm not innocent in this narrative, but I hope you understand that wishes and rivalry did not bring me this far. Sincerely, It takes people nowhere.