To the one I love
Distance and time never favored us
I never said how much I loved you
I believed silence would make my feelings for you vanish
I spend years and years alone because my heart can't let you go
I hate it that the memories with you are alive and crystal clear in my mind
That your thoughts are what I wake up with and what I go to bed with
That you have become the subject of my fantasies 
That my dreams are of you ...of what we could have possibly been
I want to see you as much as I don't want to
I know you are poison to me
But that will not stop me from wanting you
Not just wanting you,needing you
That I feel a weight on my heart when your name is called
I hate how much I hope to have a special place in your heart and life
I hate how much of my happiness left when you did
I hate that I'll love you no matter what
No matter how far I can go with it
That even if we do not speak anymore
Even if you might have forgotten the look of my face and the sound of my voice
Even if the future continues to stall 
I'll hold you dear for as long as the love I have for you wills it. 

Ashley