On the first day of January😭😭

when the world was busy shouting Happy New Year,

Kiddo learned that life does not wait for calendars🗓️🗓️

Fireworks were in the sky🎉🧨

but something exploded inside his chest.

His mother🧑‍🦳🧑‍🦳

his first home,

his soft place to land

became a memory before the year even learned his name.

January 1st🗓️

The day hope was supposed to be fresh,

but his heart woke up already tired.

They say, “Be strong.”

But how do you explain strength

to a boy whose backbone just turned into ashes?

How do you teach breathing

when every breath feels like betrayal?

Kiddo walked into a world

that suddenly showed its teeth.

Life became louder,

people became colder,

and danger started wearing friendly faces.

He learned early

that not everyone who smiles means peace,

that not every road leads home,

and that pain can disguise itself as maturity.

Some nights,

grief sat beside him like an unwanted friend,

whispering doubts,

asking questions without answers:

Why her? Why now? Why me?

But hear this—

Kiddo did not disappear.

He cried, yes.

He broke, yes.

He questioned everything, yes.

But he did not give up his name.

He realized that pain can be a teacher,

not to harden the heart,

but to sharpen the eyes.

To sense danger.

To know when to walk away.

To survive without losing the soul.

And to anyone listening

who lost a mother,

a father,

a guardian,

a safe place—

this is for you.

Your pain is not weakness.

Your tears are not failure.

Your story did not end with the funeral.

You are allowed to hurt

and still hope.

You are allowed to miss them

and still move forward.

You are allowed to rebuild

even with trembling hands.

Kiddo learned this:

that love does not die,

it changes address.

That mothers do not leave,

they live in our decisions,

our discipline,

our dreams.

So if you’re standing in your own January 1st or other days..

a day that split your life into before and after

hold on.

The road is dangerous, yes,

but you are not empty.

You are carrying a legacy.

And one day🤔💪🤌

your survival will become

someone else’s reason to breathe.