I lost all hopes

I had just loose the one who meant the world to me

But I wasn't going to accept defeat easily

I wanted to make something out of myself

I refused to let the monster he had unleashed ruined me

I wanted to go to school to prove that I was good enough and it was just a matter of time

I battled low self esteem but I was trying to redeem myself

I lost myself completely, everything I judged the street kids for I became and more

I became a shadow of myself in a quest to find healing and admission

  Finally got the admission, but now I just keep asking myself “if all the pressure was worth it?”