I resign from cheers and smiles

When no one is watching 

Warm hugs and cozy lips on my cheeks

But no one is home

Eyes full of tears and tongue tipped in screams

But all falls silent

A tornado of what ifs and why's

Yet, peace prevails outward

I am not the perfect kind

Without blemish, they think I am

A pretty face that has no face

Is nothing but a flatter lie

Not depressed or I would have hurt myself

Not anxious, my thoughts are in one place

Not calm either, I overthink

But still, not mad

What am I?

Who am I?

Just like these words, I am so confused

Different emotions, tribulations, mental issues

Just me

I don't know

I don't know