This makes him insecure about our relationship

He became obsessed with me

Which resulted to violence

I was tired of the relationship

Yet I couldn't leave

Because finally I have someone to call my own

He became more aggressive

Which threaten my peace of mind and also my safety

His violent nature grew worse everyday 

I no longer wanted to be someone's first choice or second choice

At that moment,

What mattered most was my happiness,peace of mind, and my sanity

Therefore I ended the relationship

Again I fell back to being someone's second choice

But I was loved and had peace of mind 

Because I belonged to no one and nobody belonged to me

I know that one day, 

I'll find someone who will take me not just as his first choice but as his only choice

Who would love me for me and who would look beyond my flaws and fault

But would love me the same

Until then, I'll keep been someone's second option