In the end, 

I will never be free of the deep longing and Insatiable desire in my heart. It is bittersweet and all consuming. echoing nonstop, pounding at my ribcage. I can not remember when this longing began. I have just always known it to be there. Just always felt it. Insatiable indeed. I try not to dwell or ponder on the origin but rather, embrace it, enjoy it, relish the brief warmth of said longing, the familiarity of it. The desire for peace. I am drunk on it. The mere thought of finally finding peace in a world ridden with sins of the flesh and animosity towards each other ignites this longing buried deep within the valves of my heart. peace.