There's this feeling,it's hard to explain,I feel empty all of a sudden, nothing seems to interest me .

I'm constantly trying to make meaning of this emptiness I feel, nothing seems to make sense,no one seems to make sense.

I can't speak out ,I have never been the type to,I keep things bottled in ,and each time I do ,when this emptiness comes to visit, there's a bigger void that comes with it , always leaving me feeling empty,I feel nothing good,all the things I can't be and want to be comes haunting me down.

 I have always wished I could disappear not just from the world, but from myself...  It hard going through these moments that frequently happen ,and i turn and can't find anyone to share it with,cause I have created a boundary even for myself not just people,I don't know how to ask for help or speak out .

Tears right now in my eyes I'm fighting so desperately to push in ,I feel this emptiness most times.... This is a cry for help that is never going to be cried out or heard ,so I say it to you